13 January 2012

Today we went outside, just made it in between two showers of rain!! When we came back in the hospice two residents had passed away. One lady of 79 years old and one lady of 45 years young.   Panormitis did not realized anything as we went straight to our room, anyhow he would not have been able to follow up what was happening, in his state of mind.  I had ordered lunch before most of the visitors came. With Louis Amstrong in the cd player and me dancing in front of him,  time passed by and after lunch he went very calm to sleep. Daphne and Sophia came for dinner and he finally reacted a bit, as so far today there was not a sign of emotion coming from him. Also Freek came by today while I was home cooking. Yes, Daphne is still with us as it seems not possible for her to be far away ( 3.5 hours by train ) from her father ( and us ) and she could not be concentrating on the mock exams, or school duties during this difficult time full of emotions. Sophia goes to school which is very close, not even 10 minutes distance from Panormitis. Her teachers all are informed, they give her enough space and are very understanding, which is so much appreciated by us.

I could not think of any other way that would be so hard loosing your father or partner. And they approach him with so much love and affection, we had and have the most beautiful conversations together. And not only us, but a lot of people around us have good conversations with us as well and what we all learn here during this process, is so much more worth and so much more then any lesson in school could ever teach us. Yes, I know that one does not get a diploma with this experience, but they have a good pair of brains and are so wise, that I do not worry too much about their education. They will find a way and are young enough to "catch up" later on. First things first, step by step as we did since April 6th 2010 ( another good lesson we've learned!) We left him with a foot massage around 21.00 ready to fall asleep. By the way, when I took him out in the morning I noticed that his head was a bit of unsteady while I was pushing the wheelchair. So I did not take him out too far from "home" as it must be tiring for him. Also the nurses told me that it gets more and more difficult for them to lift him out of bed, as he is not able to cooperate at all. But they do have a "lift system" so I can still take him outside the bed and after.... outdoors. Hope that the sun will come out again tomorrow.............
kalinichta